on a day-off

For two consecutive long weekends, I was out on a shoot. It sucks. I feel like such a loser. Haha! So now I took a day off to make up for loss time at home. Ahh, home.

I never thought I'd be this attached to our (relatively) new place. I always look forward to going home, never mind if the main chore waiting for me every day is cooking (which I enjoy, anyway; we eat out every once in a while--hurrah to that!). There's something about starting a new life and living in a new place that make going home exciting and special. Of course, I still have some adjustments to make; but all in all, I'm loving this place--how it's relatively near to everything (malls, hospitals, my workplace, my hubby's workplace, UP, etc); how a small community on our street exists sans the horrid busyness of the metropolis. Sure, it gets busy every weekend, but it's nothing we can't stand. How can we complain if there's Starbucks, South Star Drugstore, Eunilane, Nuat Thai Massage and more than a handful of restaurants just a stone's throw away from our building?!?

But of course, I still miss my home in Taytay--everything and everyone in it. I miss hearing the soles of my shoes softly pound the pavement whenever I go home late and there's practically no one on the street. I miss seeing and hearing rowdy kids playing on a Saturday, as they agitate our dogs who would, of course, bark at them, waking me up. I miss my mom's cooking; she even texted me yesterday saying that she feels for me for no longer being able to bring baon to work. She usually prepares my baon. I had to assure her that it's alright because I still bring baon sometimes, whenever there's some extra food left. (Awww, my mom went all senti yesterday, I bet.) I miss small talks with my sister. I even miss our fights. I miss playing with my dogs (and so it really broke my heart when mom told me one of our dogs passed away. It broke my heart so much that I cried to sleep that night). I miss sitting by the table at our indoor garden/lanai. I miss the smell of rain in that house. I miss my mega messy room. I miss it all so much. That's why I'm excited every time my mom and sis announce their unplanned visits to our new place. I enjoy the company a lot. I visit them, too, of course. And it's at these frequent visits when I realize I miss them. Indeed, it's true that proximity can make a big difference--you come to appreciate the ones you love better when you don't see them often. You bond more when you see each other.
And so as I spend the rest of this day alone in our own place, I think of my home in Taytay--but it's a thought that's not sad at all. It's a thought that makes me feel more loved and missed. And that thought is more than enough to make me feel all fuzzy inside in this gloomy, rainy weather.

i am an engineer's wife

Francis pouring over Lonely Planet's Singapore

guide while I'm being all sentimental

Francis and I have talked about what entails his being a geodetic engineer for numerous times. One major concern--I think it's the only concern--is that there are out-of-town, even out-of-the-country, assignments that may span a couple of days to a number of months. The longest we've been apart was when he was assigned (for the second time) in Cavite. He was there for five months, and this was during the time when we were preparing for our wedding. In fact, that assignment made me panic and question if he can really be hands-on on our wedding preps. But because it was just in Cavite, Francis was able to go home to Novaliches every weekend, giving him more than enough time to really help in our wedding preps. And I can say he did a great job, what with all the excel files he prepared just to make sure our wedding logistics are in place.

Although I am well aware of his possible far-from-home/far-from-me assignments, I still can't help but worry and whine and cry every time such work demands present themselves (of course, I pray they don't come often; if they do, that they be not too far and long). I know it's never easy for Francis to break the news to me. In fact, and more often than not, he exerts some effort to cushion the blow, so to speak. He'd usually treat me to a fancy dinner--a sign that he's about to break such news. (Hence, I'm a bit wary of fancy dinner invitations from him. Haha!)

***

Today is Francis' first day in Singapore. It's also my first day to learn how not to worry too much about my husband who's abroad for the first time. If I only had enough sense to fix the papers I needed to get myself my own passport way before this trip was even a possibility, I would've been there with him. I wouldn't be stuck here writing this blog (but thanks to my sis-in-law, who'll be keeping me company for 4 days that her brother's in Sing.). Yes, I'll be mushy: I miss my husband terribly. It's the first time we're this far away from each other--in our almost 11 years of being together. But I know this is how God teaches us to give more importance to each other, how to grow more fond of each other. This is God's way of teaching us to trust in our prayers, in Him. This is one of His small ways that tell me that after praying for my husband's safety, I have to learn how to lay my cares down and let Him do the job. I've always been a worrywart, and I know it's never helpful. What's the sense of praying if I would only keep on worrying even afterwards, right?

But I'm still really wishing and hoping and pleading for time to fly so fast that it's already Friday evening, when I'd be on my way to NAIA Terminal 3 to pick up and welcome back my wonderful husband. But I know that four days of being apart can spell a sweeter difference in our relationship. Plus of course, I know Francis is enjoying his time in Sing. Why, he already went gaga over hard-to-find CDs, and was ranting about how he might run out of cash hoarding those CDs (the lamenting about how expensive they are relative to the prices here came first before the ranting)! And knowing that he's enjoying his short stay there makes me happy, too.

goofy grammatical glitch

On our way out of the mall, after having dinner with my sister-in-law (who turned a year older last Tuesday), we saw this ad.

I had to look twice to see if I read the words right. Was it " sHAVED", as in "We SHAVED..."? But no, it's better than that.

So I suppose the branch moved twice. Past, past tense.

our first mag appearance as h&w, weeee!

Thanks to my friend, Bubs, for volunteering me and Francis--a newly married couple--for GH's section on financial concerns. Not that we're in a financial crisis this early into the marriage--God forbid that ever happens! The article is about various money concerns from different individuals with different backgrounds.

So go grab July Good Housekeeping pronto! There's a money trick (or two) to learn.

P.S. Thanks also to Alona for scanning the page! And to Eugene for making our photo the biggest one in this feature. How vain can I get, hahaha!

so what makes an ideal wife?

My colleague asked me to ask Francis if it's okay with him to answer some questions about his take on an ideal wife. Francis said he's just fine with it. So when he checked his email a while ago, he was surprised to see just one question: What makes a good wife?

His (not serious) answer, which he said out loud?

"Maliit, maingay, mahilig maglaro ng computer games, late matulog, matigas ulo, mahina kumain, minamasahe ako."

(Small, noisy, likes to play computer games, late sleeper, stubborn, picky eater, gives me massages.)

Hahahahahah!

my husband made me cry last night...

...But it's not because we fought or anything like that. It's like this.

You see lately, I've been thinking about selling my Canon Powershot A620 to get myself some brand new P&S camera. Beren, my Powershot, has served me well and has witnessed my beginnings as a novice photographer (not that I'm a pro now). It's not just a Point-and-shoot cam; it's actually a prosumer camera that has manual settings. Beren was there to replace my very crappy Olympus camera (my first digital cam), and he was also there to witness how I first tinkered with aperture and exposure settings. In other words, Beren is sentimental to me. And much as I hate to sell him, I can already feel the need to, especially because I already have Ken'ichi, my 400D DSLR. I just need a simple P&S for blogging and snapshots purposes (but one that already has a higher resolution and can produce better image quality). I'm just hoping that someone I know would buy it from me so I can still get to see Beren every once in a while, see how he is (and how his new owner is treating him. haha!)

Since Francis knows how sentimental I can get--and how annoying I can be just wondering out loud how Beren is in the hands of his new BFF--he thought of a very bright, über sweet idea: he'd just buy it from me to spare me from missing and worrying about my cam. That way, he gets to have his own camera (as if mine is not conjugal!) and he won't have to hear me whining. Hahah! But seriously, his idea made me so happy and I was so touched I couldn't help but cry!

I super thank God for giving me such a sweet and thoughtful husband that's beyond what I imagined...

P.S.
But Francis is still not thrilled about my plans to buy an iTouch. I guess I'd have to put that off. Haha!

japanese cravings

No, I won't be talking about my Japanese boy crush, Ken'ichi Matsuyama. Haha!

This is about a yummy biscuit that Francis brought home from their office. Whenever a Japanese colleague comes back from Japan, there'd always be some Japanese goodies. Good thing Francis grabbed 2 packs of these, now I'm craving for it (the half-moon shaped biscuit is goooood!)

Can someone tell me what they're called and if they're locally available? Puh-leeez!

this ain't happening to me...

The other week at the office, a colleague came up to me and she seemed to have an urgent matter to discuss.

O: Muther shine!!!!
Me: Yes po?
O: Mamu, may bilbil ka na!

At that very moment, sana bumuka na lang ang lupa at nilamon ako...

i just need to test this...

My other blog here on blogger is automatically cross-posted on Multiply, which I don't want happening. So let me test if the html code for not cross-posting specific entries will work. Pardon me.

extending the bounds of my musings

I am currently working on another blog that I hope to maintain religiously. It's quite different from the ones I already have. To know what I'm talking about, follow me!

http://musingsunderthesun.blogspot.com/

"so how's married life?" i am frequently asked

I'm married for almost three months now.

Surprisingly, I didn't go through that difficult adjustment phase some newly married women experience. I mean, sure, I do miss my family back in Taytay; heck, even my dogs (they're family, too!). But I never had to wake up feeling awful about how everything has suddenly changed after saying "I do". On the contrary, that waking-up-married-for-the-first-time moment was, how do I say this...beautiful. All the anxiety and fears I felt before walking down the aisle were but funny, little worries now.

But here's the "dilemma": I'm going on a 4-day, 3-night trip to Naga/CamSur this Wednesday--the longest I'll be (so far) away from my husband and our cozy home.

I never imagined married life can make me this attached to things. I worry that Francis won't be able to eat well while I'm gone. I'll miss cooking (yes, I can cook! a talent I discovered during the first week of being married). I'll miss coming home to our cozy living room which we just decorated with zen-ish ornament, complete with scent diffusers that smell of sweet strawberries. I'll miss climbing five flights of stairs. It's funny to be actng and feeling this way because I'll only be gone for just four days, but four days seem too long for me.

I have to admit that I was tempted to not go to that trip (work-related). But Francis urged me to. Perhaps I just don't want to admit, until now, that being away from this new home--this new life--is one (if not the only) of the main reasons why I refused out-of-town shoots before, which were scheduled after I became a mrs.

It's weird. I can only surmise that this new-found attachment surfaced because everything now feels new--new surroundings, new neighborhood, new home, new sofa, new dining table, new address, new route--almost everything. It's like relishing a new bag that you always want to use because it's new. But in this case, I'm hoping I'm not acting all mushy just because things around me are new. Deep inside, I wish to remain this sentimental, though of course I hope not to be too sentimental that I'd cripple myself.

Sure, maybe this is still the honeymoon phase I am experiencing; but I do hope this lasts for years because I still can't shake this awful feeling of having to be away from my new home for more than a day.

Ack! I'd really miss coming home to our place. And for three nights, there'd be no Francis to welcome me home and hug me to sleep. I hope I can survive.

going back to that happy place where we grieved

It was Sunday, 4 o’clock in the morning, and my husband and I were already awake. We had barely two hours of sleep after an evening—make that a day—of celebrating perhaps the most momentous day of our lives: our wedding.

Our flight to Bohol, where we were bound for our 4-day, 3-night honeymoon, would leave at 8am. Not wanting to be late or start our honeymoon with frazzled nerves from rushing to the airport, we arrived at the NAIA Terminal 2 at 6:15.

Because we availed of seats promo (ours was PAL’s Econolight), we didn’t have the luxury to choose our seats; consequently, we risked being seated apart. But perhaps it was because we were on our honeymoon, and we were probably that obvious that we were honeymooning (no, there was no smooching or any grave PDA), the check-in counter personnel had a big heart to fix our seats.

Hubby enjoying a cup of hot choco

With more than an hour to spare, we slumped onto Delifrance’s wicker chairs and took our time enjoying our breakfast. About 20 minutes before our scheduled flight, an announcement said that ours would be a little delayed. However, to our delight, barely 10 minutes passed when passengers bound to Tagbilaran were instructed to form one line in front of the loading entrance.

The white watch on my left arm said 8:10am. We were off to lovely Bohol, expecting to land on its humble airport before half-past 9.

***

A yummy concoction of orange juice

At two in the afternoon, we were still in bed trying to catch as much needed sleep as we can. Yes, we were aware that we just wasted half of the first day of our honeymoon not honeymooning but snoozing. We didn’t mind, really. Six months of happy stress finally took its toll on our bodies that we had to find a way to at least recharge for a few hours.

Still groggy and squinting from the early afternoon sun’s glare, we made our way to Amorita Resort’s restaurant pride, Saffron. Their website did not lie. The restaurant is indeed a perfect place to fulfill one’s gastronomic cravings while giving one’s senses the treat they deserve.

Fronting the open resto is the idyllic infinity pool. A dip or some laps really does rejuvenate the body, what with a breath-taking view of the Panglao beach just in front of your eyes—pristine, clear blue-green waters very slowly rushing to meet the powdery shore. The high tide in the morning makes for a refreshing, cool dip; while the afternoon’s low tide calls for guests to wade in the semi-exposed shoreline. And that was just what we did after our late lunch.

Taking in the late afternoon heat, my husband and I strolled along the beach, unmindful of the many Europeans who were basking on their mats, hoping to get the tan they so covet. Surprisingly, that time of the year, there wasn’t much Asian guests in Panglao, mostly Caucasians, a handful of Koreans and few of our kababayans. When I was last in Bohol, Koreans were everywhere.

***

Dinner was served a bit late than we expected. We didn’t really mind. Amorita’s staff have been very polite and accommodating from the first hour we arrived, so it was somehow snobbish to complain. Edward, one of Saffron’s attendants, was kind enough to talk us up while we were waiting for our free dinner (the package we availed includes one). Unfortunately for Francis, he was served the same food he ordered for lunch—mahi-mahi fillet with almond. His consolation? Turones de Bohol for dessert. I had to agree with him—it was de-li-cious!

***

At about 11:30 in the evening, my phone registered a missed call from my sister-in-law, Sugar. I didn’t have time to call her back when my phone rang again. On the other line was Sugar, her words I could barely make out. All I understood was that she wanted to speak to her kuya. Right then and there, I understood what was happening, what had happened.

Mommy Susie had passed away. After almost two years of battling with breast cancer, which eventually metastasized to her bones and brain, her body became too weak to fight some more. For us, the timing of her demise was touching. It was as if she just waited for her beloved son and I to get married. In fact, after the previous day’s reception, we headed straight to Novaliches to visit her and say hello, and of course, to show her that we have finally tied the knot. It was sad enough not to see her with us on our precious day, but we’d rather that she stay in bed to rest. That night was my first time to see her so weak. A week ago, she was still able to utter comprehensible words. That night, she can barely whisper. But we were all happy, including Daddy Edwin who begged off from attending our wedding so he can be by his wife’s side in case of emergency. We didn’t really realize that it was already her last day. But yes, if we were to believe (and we did) that she just waited for us to get married and be done with that day’s festivities, then we are definitely grateful to her. We know Mommy Susie tried so hard to fend off that dark cloud, perhaps pleading to give her a few more hours until after her son and her daughter-in-law walked down the aisle, before she succumbed.

Francis and I thought of cutting our honeymoon short. We even thought of canceling the next day’s dolphin watching trip to give us more time to grieve, but we were told that that would incur us a 50 to 100 percent cancellation fee. So we just decided to go through with it.

***

Kuya Gilbert says "hello"

Kuya Cris on the lookout for dolphins

Kuya Cris and Kuya Gilbert made sure we had our electronic gadgets locked safely in a small, yellow Pelican brief case provided by Bohol Aquatic Adventures, Amorita’s own dive shop. The sun had barely said good morning to that side of the planet as we waded our way to the small rigger boat that would then bring us to a bigger banca. It was a glorious morning, yet we let last night’s news dampen our spirits. We felt it wasn’t right to feel so giddy and absolutely happy when back in Manila, the funeral for Mommy Susie was being arranged. Still, it was a glorious morning; and despite not spotting any dolphins (all bancas who set sail to dolphin watch were unfortunate not to see any), the two hours at sea had been a refreshing break for us newly married.

Filipino food + cereals = perfect morning

We got back to the resort in time for our buffet breakfast. Aside from the dolphin watching included in the honeymoon package we availed of, as well as the sunset cruise scheduled late in the afternoon of the same day, we were also happy to have a daily buffet breakfast. In between mouthfuls of rice, Francis got busy with calls to and from Sugar, fixing whatever needs to be fixed for the funeral.

***

The sunset cruise boys

At 5:30 pm, just before the sun set low in the horizon, we were off to the same rigger boat that took us dolphin watching that morning. It was still Kuya Cris who accompanied us, together with Alfred, our “personal butler” who brought along a free bottle of white wine, two flute glasses and a bucket of ice, and the boats “driver” (unfortunately, we failed to commit his name to memory). About 150 feet or so from the shoreline, our kuya boatman killed the boat’s engine as Alfred politely poured some sparkling wine into our glasses. I’m not really a fan of alcoholic drinks, nor is Francis, but a refreshing glass of wine was a warm welcome to us. We silently watched the sky break into many different colors that kept on changing every few minutes. That was also the moment we let each other know how we’ll miss Mommy Susie. We know she’s already in a safer and painless place, yet I can’t help but feel cheated—I was so looking forward to having her as my mother-in-law, now made official. My mom, whom she considers her best friend ever since we formally introduced the two of them, felt the same. My mother had been so excited when Mommy Susie finally retired from working, because they had an agreement that they’d travel together. I bet my mom felt the same way we did when I broke the sad news to her. And it was in those times when I heard my own mom utter words of shock that I wish it were all a bad dream.

***

A few weeks back, I told a colleague friend how I felt about all that was happening just before Francis and I got married. I was surprised at my own honesty, but I was confident that since the person I was talking to is also about to get married, I instinctively knew she’d understand how I was feeling at that time. I remember telling her over late lunch how I was so afraid—afraid of what might happen to my mom-in-law. It was just a matter of time before Mommy Susie’s body gives up. The doctors already stated that fact—that we be prepared for the worst. Radiotherapy’s goal is to just extend a cancer patient’s life, not save her. I was so afraid, I told my colleague, that I’d have to see my husband be torn with happiness and grief—regardless of whether that would happen before or after we got married. It was somehow selfish of me to be afraid, to not want to see him suffer. Moreso, I felt guilty for feeling so weak during the time when Francis needed me to be strong for him. All that was left was to pray and hope for a miracle.

Yet even if that miracle didn’t happen, Mommy Susie’s demise gave us something we never expected. The bond between me and Francis got stronger, and so has the bond between him and his sister.

***

The whole of Tuesday was spent traveling around Bohol, uncovering its many historical and natural wonders. Since we didn’t avail of the package that includes such trip, we just rented an Altis to get us around the province. Good thing it was the same car and driver that had fetched us from the airport when we arrived two days ago. Though our driver, Sherwin, is not the type who’s generous with words, he had been kind enough to let us into a handful of tidbits about the places we visited.

At the Chocolate Hills viewing deck. Not so sunny that day

Which is the tarsier? Be my guest to guess. Haha!

The Blood Compact site was the first stop; next was the Baclayon museum and church, the second oldest church in the country. Then it was off to the magnificent Chocolate Hills. The dull weather didn’t allow for postcard-perfect pictures with the well-formed hills as background, but seeing that natural wonder (first time for Francis and second for me) still never failed to make the 30-minute stopover unforgettable.

Our cruise faring Loboc River

Lunch at the Loboc River aboard a cruise was next on the itinerary. For only 300 pesos per head, we got to have a buffet Pinoy lunch and a one-hour ride on Loboc River. Our cruise was composed of a fair mixture of Pinoy and Korean tourists, with two or three Caucasians who also shared in the fun.

Entertainment care of the locals

The more entertaining part was the 15-minute stopover on the way back to the dock, when us tourists got to mingle with the locals to enjoy their music and dance. With a rondalla ensemble, the locals entertained us with their rendition of OPM songs as well as tunes in the vernacular. There was also a tinikling showdown, where tourists tried their luck in the folkdance while hopping in between two hitting bamboo poles. We then had a short side trip to one of two certified tarsier "houses". Those small primates never fail to let the giggle out of me.

After the cruise, Sherwin proudly drove us to where Prony is housed. Prony is arguably the largest python in captivity. Just how big is it? Together with some fast facts tacked on a bulletin board greeting visitors is a picture of the huge python taken a few years back, happily feeding on a whole piglet. Yes, a whole piglet!

Of course, an out-of-town trip is never complete without a jaunt to the nearest pasalubong haven, so it was off to pasalubong hoarding after we said goodbye to Prony.

After about two hours of spending money, it was back to the resort.

We capped off the night with what's left of the white wine from the sunset cruise. We decided to linger a little while near the infinity pool, beside a tree well-lit by yellow lights. It was a relatively quiet evening spent with us being silent, with just the canopy of tiny lights above our heads.

***

Our last day at Amorita started with another heartwarming eat-all-you-can breakfast. We then rested for a while before heading off to the beach to take a swim (or a dip, if it’s more fitting). The water was cool, and the sand so divinely fine it can give Boracay a run for its revenue. No kidding.

The spectacular sea view from Amorita

Once we got tired of the beach, it was time to take a dip into the infinity pool. We first had our romance with Amorita’s popular pool on our first day, and that was late in the afternoon. The view was spectacular. But this time around, with the sun almost at its zenith, the view changed—it was more spectacular, as if we were seeing the beach for the first time or from different pairs of eyes. The sunny sky, with a scattering of fluffy cotton clouds, provided a perfect backdrop for the two-toned sea. It’s as if we were in a little pocket of the Caribbean. Glorious. Magnificent. Perfect.

***

The good thing about Panglao beach is that guests are not tied down to eating meals exclusively at the resort they’re booked in. Wanting to taste a variety of foods, not to mention being practical (some dishes at the Saffron Resto are pricey for their taste), we again scouted the many other resorts lined up at the beach front for a good last lunch.

After a serving of sizzling squid, a platter of sweet and sour prawns, and two glasses of chocolate shake, Francis and I headed back to our resort. Realizing I had no souvenir buy for myself, I immediately grabbed a pretty woven bag big enough to carry the rest of our pasalubongs. It’s also a nice native bag for overnight trips.

***

For the past three days of our stay, the sea was calm; but during our last day, Nature decided to change her mind and made the sea throw waves at the shoreline. On our way back to Amorita, we heard the locals remark on how turbulent the waters were that day. We can only assume that it was something unusual for the usually calm sea. Somehow, it was a relief that the sea decided to become unfriendly during our last day.

On the ride to Tagbilaran airport, I silently reflected on how refreshing and blessed our honeymoon was, despite knowing a loved one just passed away. At the same time, I realized that maybe, just maybe, the whole trip had been a happy one because Mommy Susie wanted us to be just that—happy.

And we know that she is, too.

twilight zone

Last Saturday, just before we went hunting for twigs, Francis kind of decided already that we're to eat in CASAA. Since he looked so bent on it, I didn't disagree.

While we were deciding on what other food to buy because the pasta we ordered didn't fill us up:

Me: Meron dun na lengua. P50 lang!
Francis: P50?!?! Ang mahal naman!
Me: Huh? Mahal? Hindi ka na kaya student. You're already working, hello?!
Francis: (pouts and looks embarassed of what he just said)

So cute. Hahaha!

hunting day

Yesterday was another busy day for me and Francis. First on the list was to hand over our invitation to our ninong Omar, my mom's super nice boss. It's been years since I last saw him and his family, and it was really surprising to see how grown up their kids are now. Made me realize I'm old. Ew.

Next was a trip to my former workplace, Vibal, to claim a long overdue raket check. Unfortunately, their accounting can't find that precious piece of paper so I resolved to just leave an authorization to a friend who works there and proceed to UP, where Francis and I, together with my sister and her beau, would hunt for twigs.

Yes, twigs. Instyle Weddings has this whimsical idea on place cards with the use of twigs. And since we're having a garden wedding, I found the idea perfect. Little did I know the actual work of gathering twigs is so tedious and tiresome. (As of this moment, we already had three trips to UP just for that. Good thing we already have more than enough number of twigs to clean and varnish.)

Next stop was at The Banquet to pay for the sound system we're renting. I've also decided to source my entourage flowers from them. The group is just soooo nice we can't help but be amazed. We're also renting the bridal car from them. At first, we thought it must be part of their selling strategy--being nice and very accommodating. But thinking we're only making use of some--not all--of their services for them to bother selling themselves to us, we then knew they were genuinely nice. Bombet, one of the coordinators, even helped us find a hotel where we'd stay the night before the big day. Because the hotel we were eyeing--Seameo and Sulo--are already fully booked, Bombet recommended that we try Rembrandt and Imperial on Tomas Morato. Since Rembrandt only has one (relatively) affordable room available, we went straight there to check out the room. After the 5-minute tour, it was a go for me, so we had it reserved. Then we were off to Imperial. Their rooms are A-okay, so Francis also had one reserved (though he's still on a lookout for a cheaper one).

And then the most exciting part of the busy day's work: claiming our wedding bands. At past 8pm, we were already at Suarez in Gateway anxiously waiting to fit our rings. Once the attendant carefully placed the beige box before us, Francis and I did not waste any moment trying the lovely bands on. They were a perfect fit I can't help but want to just keep mine on! But of course I can't. I had to remind myself that it's only a matter of weeks before I get to keep that ring on my finger. We have decided (well, it's more like I charmed Francis into deciding) to get a white gold pair in a simple yet elegant design, but a pair that's out of the ordinary ones usually seen in catalogues.

Haaay. Moments like these really make me all the more excited for our big day. And for a bride like me, there's nothing more heartwarming than hearing my groom whisper how overly excited he is, too--with matching (manly) kilig.

a great lesson learned: saying goodbye to 2008

Last year, my first blog entry was about how Francis proposed to me in Baguio. Seems like a very good way to start off 2008. And now looking back to the year that just waved goodbye, I can say that yes, it was a pretty good year for me--perhaps not that fab--but good enough for me to say there are no regrets.

Of course, there have been ups and downs, but generally, 2008 fared better than other years. For one, the year was busy with wedding preparations--how can that be not exciting, right? Then, there were those many work-related out-of-town trips that really made me realize how I want to travel more and appreciate how beautiful this country is, how fun it is to immerse oneself in a different environment even just for a day or two (that Benguet trip was the best of it all). These trips also allowed me to have my photos published--to my delight.

But perhaps the best experience that 2008 gave me happened during my OB trip to Albay. It has been a great lesson taught to me by God: I need to wait it out some more, and that good enough is never good enough. It was a lesson well-learned that I had this desire to share it to other people, and I thank the Lord for giving me that opportunity when I was asked to testify during our Thanksgiving Sunday at church last November.

I was so close to finally reaching my dream of writing--just writing. I mean, sure, my present job gives me the opportunity to write with byline; it's just that it was never part of my job description per se. It just so happened that I get to write as a side job (being in a magazine publishing industry and all; which reminds me, this year brought in a lot of writing stints on the side!), but writing with byline is never part of the deal with what I'm doing right now in our department (we're sort of an in-house ad agency). So when that dream opportunity came knocking at my door, I grabbed it without really thinking. And just when I was that close to finally getting it, I had to turn my back not because I want to but because I just had to. Some people, like I said in my entry before, may not understand why I did it, why I turned my back to it. But in the bigger scheme of things, I know that if I took it, if I took the easy road and said yes, in the end I would've regretted it. I had to turn my back because there are certain things I can't compromise. It was hard. It was shattering. It was that one point when I questioned God why He should make me wait some more as if the waiting I'd done wasn't enough. Why wasn't this His will? I could've just ignored that small voice and just went in for the big thing, but the voice, albeit tiny, was loud enough for me not to ignore. Apparently, the decision I made didn't come with immediate peace.

But now, looking back, I know I've already made my peace with that decision. God didn't took so long to give me the calm I asked for after He said "no" to me. And until now, when I go through what happened in my head, I am so happy to say that I did make the right decision. There are still times when I ask myself where I would be right now had I decided otherwise--I could perhaps be doing what I've always wanted to do, but I know I won't feel the peace I have now.

Indeed, there are no regrets for 2008. And I look forward to a brand new year as I saunter into a brand new chapter of my life: that of being a Mademoiselle Funa.

busy, busy holiday

In between last-minute holiday shopping and all the holiday preparations, Francis and I got so busy ironing out a couple more items on our checklist before we get to say "I do" two months from now. Thank the Lord for making my asthma go away fast, we only had to deal with a one-day delay in our schedule of wedding prep activities.

Dec. 20 was our pre-cana seminar in UP Parish, where we had to seriously consider and tackle serious marriage issues to ensure that we really are marrying for the right purpose. A week before that, we had to drop by the Taytay church to have our wedding bann posted (to make sure no one "hinders" our marriage. Haha!). Then just before the long holiday break started, we've already booked our flight to our honeymoon destination--Bohol--as well as our hotel there, Amorita. Isn't the place oh-so-lovely?!?! Then today, we had our invites printed and our purty wedding bands ordered (was supposed to do these yesterday had it not been for my asthma and a slight fever). Before work begins next week, we're hoping to book the bridal car, check the invitation sample print, fix the seat plan, and search for a house we can rent for a few months/years. (But of course, we're still hoping to find a great deal for a house and lot that we can purchase within our first year as hubby and wifey).

Just a couple more items to check: my shoes, the reception program, the band, the choir from our church (I'll let my maid of honor, my sis, take care of this), my pastor's sermon during the reception (I need to remind him about this), wedding vows, wedding cake, place cards, table names, thank you tags for the favors, and a meetup with our caterer to finalize table and reception venue setups. Oh, we also need to meet with our emcees, our good friends Ate Jha and Chad; and also with our reception organizers, siblings Jai and Jael. And of course, there are some more expenses to settle. Whew! But we're so glad we're already done with the major details of the wedding. I am especially looking forward to the first week of January as I'll be fitting my wedding gown already! Weeee!

Best of all, I'm so happy I can cartwheel with joy to know that my groom is as excited (if not more than) as I am. Every day that brings us nearer to THE date only brings us closer, making me realize how blessed I am to be marrying him.

P.S.
We're still contemplating if we're still to have our pre-nup photo shoot, what with all our photos spanning 10 years! And if ever we decide to go for it, we're looking at Baguio. And if we're to go to Baguio for the shoot, it better be this January...Hmmm...

pay it forward to Mang Milton of UP Palma Hall

May the Lord bless Mang Milton...and to those who didn't pay their loans, please have a heart to at least visit or help out Mang Milton in whatever way you can.


Story HERE.

a happy, happy day!

Three wonderful things happened today.

Last night, on the way home after watching Twilight with Francis, Cindy and her friend Mel in Robinsons Galleria (was disappointed by the movie, by the way), I realized I didn't have my Starbucks planner with me--which means, I must've left it somewhere, either in Podium or Galleria. But then again, when I tried to recall real hard where I probably have left it, I don't remember ever having it with me when we were in Galleria. That must mean I left it somewhere in Podium, in the 2nd level comfort room, if memory serves me right. So early this morning, I immediately called the Podium administration to report what happened, and they were very kind enough to accommodate my dilemma. A certain Mr. Gomez entertained my call. He got my name and contact number, assuring me he'd endorse the issue to their secretary, Michelle. I called them at 8am; come 10:30, our phone rang and my sister called for me, saying someone from Podium was calling. I was so happy to hear from Michelle that they did find my planner! It was pure joy! That planner contains 11 months of my 2008 life, so I prayed really hard that I'd be able to find it. So before meeting with Francis tomorrow for our "official" anniversary date, I'll drop by Podium to claim my beloved planner.

Then this afternoon, my sister and I went to Divisoria to check on the color of the fabric for my entourage. I was worried that the couturier would really have a hard time finding the perfect fabric in the perfect shade of plum we want. But lo and behold, after an exhausting walk to the couturier's stall, they found a better one! Wooopee! Happy bride I am!

And since we were in Divisoria, we made most of the time by scouring the place for the perfect wedding favor, which is the only thing unchecked in our list. Francis and I were hoping to find something musically themed. After minutes of walking and pushing around amid the crowd, sis and I were disappointed to see that the many wedding giveaways there are the ordinary ones that didn't really suit our taste. We decided to just head home, as my sis still has to attend choir practice by 7pm. She decided we take a short cut, hoping to find an easier (and less crowded) way back to where we can hail a PUV to the LRT station. Unfortunately, it was a bad decision; we found ourselves squished among a stream of busy shoppers, and I had to scold my sister for insiting we take that "short cut". Good thing there's this sidestreet with less people (but a tad crowded with mechandise). And just before turning another street, we passed by this quaint store, Grandway Commercial, housing lots of figurines and other house decor. I dragged my sister in to see if we can find something nice. We were barely in the store for five mintues when I found these cute steel figurines holding various musical instruments! It's like I was meant to find them! Such serendipity! Not wasting any time, I took a picture of one figurine, sent it to Francis, and hurriedly called him to ask his opinion. I wasn't disappointed--he loves them! Therefore, I haggled for a more reasonable price and told the sales clerk I'd be back as soon as I can to finalize my order. It's been a blessing finding that store! They also have lots of wonderful, quirky pieces that'll spice up any home--cute salt and pepper shakers, a beehive container (yes, a beehive!), antique-looking oriental chests, and other wonderful stuff.

Thank the Lord for a blessed day!

this is our first decade together

Dear Francis,

Forgive me for writing at this hour; this is my little way of consoling myself for losing to you every time I try to beat you to greeting us a “Happy Anniversary”. This is also me anticipating losing to you (yet again) tomorrow. I’ll try so hard not to, because I won’t get to greet you a “Happy 10th Anniversary!” in person until another 10 years has gone by. Anyway, I just want you to know that…

When we’re old and grey, I still need you to intertwine your calloused fingers with mine.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to plant soft kisses on my wrinkled forehead.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to strum your guitar and accompany my hoarse melodies.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to tell me those outdated jokes—and I will still laugh like they’re the best jokes ever.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to call me silly names that make me want to slap your flabby arms.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to make up stories that I would believe as if they’re history.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to wrap your arms around my frail shoulders.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to listen to my endless chattering.
When we’re old and grey, I still need you to remain calm while I throw a fuss like any old woman would.
When we’re old and grey,
I still need you.

Happy 10th Anniversary to us, Pangga. I can’t wait for another decade spent with you— blessed by the Lord. Another decade and another and another and another…

i shall flash

Flash me!

I thought Francis won't be giving me the flash I've been pining for for our 10th anniversary, primarily due to budget constraints (we're still in for a lot of wedding spending!). And I never would've minded it, really. But the Master of Surprises pulled another hat trick and voila! a Canon Speedlite 430EX II became mine for the taking. Never mind if I failed to comply with our be-at-work-by-9am-at-the-latest-for-two-months deal. The sacrifice, though, is our celebration on the 30th (the 26th day of this month is our official date)--we may not have that grand date we were planning, but who cares! I'll just take tons of pictures of us two. Hahaha! Nah, I'm sure we can cook up an extra-special date that doesn't require breaking the bank.

Pangga, THANK YOU!

But there's only one thing that displeases me: now that iPod indeed pales in comparison with the flash. Hmf!

P.S.
Cos, thanks again for helping Francis. Hahaha!

license to wed

Fresh from the QC Hall, Civil Registry, Window 10

Wooohoooo!!!

You know those moments when you're just utterly at lost for words? That was how I felt when I finally held those precious papers that legitimize our intention to marry. I may have looked like a weird, little girl with a silly smile plastered on my face when I stepped out of the Civil Registry building, making my way to the DOH building to briefly meet my dad.

Of course, I was again running late. Took a half-day off from work to run to QC Hall for our marriage license. I was afraid I'd never make it on time and would have to wait until after lunch for office hours to resume. But I was right on time--40 minutes before lunch. I only had to wait for about 10 minutes before "Funa" was called. I promptly stood up, refraining myself from dashing to Window 10. Wow. I stood up at the call of "Funa". Wow. Wee!

So there I was, beaming as I held the license. The moment was surreal but magnificent.

Well, I bet every moment of February 28, 2009 will be surreal. In fact, I think every day thereafter will be...

wedding mania

It all started one or two weeks back.

Seems like my waking moments these days (hello, even in my dreaming state!) are very much pre-occupied with the thought of getting married--starting from the big day itself to the days and months and years and decades after that.

I admit that having my weekends devoted to wedding preparations is tiring, but I find joy in it. We decided not to hire a wedding coordinator because Francis and I know we can handle everything (aside from the fact that hiring one costs A LOT! But we're getting one for the day itself.) In fact, I enjoy having to mind the nitty gritty. Maybe I have to thank being in an industry that calls for close attention to details.

At this point, we already have a printer to make our invites; and we've already found a couturier to make the gown, barongs and dresses. It's just a matter of finalizing the entourage so we can set a date for the measurement and get the sewing machines rolling. I'm a bit anxious about this as we only have less than three weeks in order to keep to our schedule. Measuring (is that the correct term?) has to be made by the second week of November at the latest, so we can have the fitting by the end of December or first week of January. I'm so excited!!!

Then, when before I used to ignore billboards of condos and houses, now I pay more attention to them. Just the thought of moving into a new nesting place come first quarter of next year makes me all giddy. But before that, there's our honeymoon. We're looking at two options: Hong Kong or Bohol. Given enough moolah, we'd choose the former. But then again, I think that even if we do, maybe I'd (my sole opinion here) go for Bohol because 1) I fell in love with it--it's fantastic! My first (overnight) trip there made me crave for a longer stay; and 2) I'd rather that we save the extra money for a good place. Where we sleep after the honeymoon is far more important, right? I'm sure Francis shares the same sentiment. But definitely, we'd be saving up for an out-of-the-country future trip in case our Hong Kong dream gets junked. It's just that if we're to go on a honeymoon a day after we say "I do", we need to start booking our flight and accommodation by as early as next month. That means we need to make up our minds before October ends! Whew!

So anyway, that's it for now. I just reall, REALLY can't wait to get married. It's the start of a new, fantastic life with Pangga! Woohoo!

P.S.
There's another wedding expo this weekend at the Megatrade Hall, where we'll scout for the perfect wedding band! We actually saw a very classy pair at Suarez in Gateway, and I immediately fell in love with them. We just need to make sure if there are better ones out there.

i found a new addiction

I guess I'm someone who's always believed that writing notes on paper trumps the techie way of pressing keys--on a laptop, a desktop computer or a Palm Pilot. I've always found novelty in using good ol' pen and paper. I prefer keeping track of my schedule with my moleskin Starbucks planner (looking forward to a new one this holiday!). I enjoy taking notes of sudden bursts of creativity on a notebook. So it's no surprise that when I stumbled upon these wonderfully pretty notebooks by Paper Blanks, I was smitten.

Fast forward to a few weeks, those lovely notebooks are still on my mind; and yesterday, I have made up my mind to run to the (relatively) new Fully Booked right beside Shangri-la Hotel after work and fulfill my notebook fantasies. And as if destined to happen, our payslip reflected no tax deduction (hence, more money to spare/spend), so there was more motivation to pursue my mission. Cindy, who also went gaga over Paper Blanks, was easily coaxed into buying with me.

Fast forward to a few hours, Jenny, Cindy and I found ourselves entering the kingdom of Fully Booked, with only 15 minutes left before the store closes. Cindy and I were really running around like two headless chickens, not sure which design to buy. Good thing for her, Cindy found the design she first fell in love with. I, on the other hand, had to settle for a notebook bearing the same design that I like but of a different color. Yet fate was kind to me that night: just when I was about to pay for my purchase, my eyes hovered on this revolving acrylic shelf carrying these other notebooks, and there I found my love--a slim, Smythe sewn pad with Lyon Floral design and a magnetic strap enclosure. I jumped with glee! The lovely thing shall serve as my official wedding notebook!

And as if one notebook wasn't enough, Cindy and I couldn't resist the others on display as well. They were of another brand, and a couple of hundreds cheaper than Paper Blanks (I got one by Teneues in a Breakfast at Tiffany's artwork!). So there: Cindy and I ended up panic-buying, while Jen reserved some notepads/sketchpads for her revived sketching passion.

Without further ado, I present my precious buys:

Smythe sewn Paper Blank Journal in Lyon Floral design (slim), P777,
(3 1/2 x 7, 176 pp., with a memento pouch and ribbon page marker, acid-free!)

Teneues Line Journal, small (10 x 15cm),
with garter enclosure and a memento pouch

This one is for a future purchase. I just hope by then, this is already locally available.

Smythe sewn Paper Blank Journal in Good Dog (Darn Itch!) design (5 x 7, 176 pp., with a memento pouch, magnetic strap enclosure and ribbon page marker)

sometimes i wish i were a tactless beyotch

There are some things I can live with--snide comments I can let pass and just ignore for my own peace of mind. Or some misconceptions about me by some people who easily judge my being loud as a sign of, say, having loose morals, as absurd as such judgment may sound. I mean, what would I get from convincing you otherwise, right? It's not like I'm in showbiz trying to act prude and all that just for publicity. Duh.

Then again, there are other misconceptions about me that get to me. Case in point: I am a talkative person; I never run out of stories or things to say, and some of my friends find that nice because at least I don't bore them to death. Some people, however, misconstrue my being loquacious for my being untrustworthy--as if I would announce to the whole world the dear secrets they'd tell me. Some would even go to lengths as to subtly accuse me of spilling their beans when in fact, and to begin with, the information does not even pass the criteria of being a secret; there was not even an agreement to keep mum about the information anyway. (Analogy: would you actually consider having a new watch a secret when people would eventually notice you're wearing it? COME ON!) Well, hello--I may possibly know more secrets about them than they maybe aware of; and if I were the blabbermouth they think I am, they'd probably be more than embarrassed/ashamed by now.

Which brings me to the point: At times when I feel insulted because some people nonchalantly pass such judgment on me to my face, I just keep my mouth shut. I push away that need to retort back, thinking that if I did, I might go overboard and end up stepping on someone's foot. I have this annoying tendency to just let it all go and pretend that for the next few minutes of the conversation, I was not offended. We're still all good friends; on to happy chit-chat. I tend to try to ignore it, and to my dismay, I usually succeed. I may have succeeded at ignoring and letting it all pass for so many times now that this is the only time I've actually opened up about the issue.

So yes, sometimes I really wish I were a tactless b*tch who doesn't care if I hurt other people's feelings, for as long as I've defended myself from their harsh judgments.

Maybe today I should start becoming one. It's pretty tiring to be Ms. Nice all the time.

coffee dew (acoustic) at 9 Mile

At the Songwriters' Night last Sept. 30, 08

Coffee Dew (acoustic)
Lyrics: Sunshine Selga
Music/Arrangement: Francis Funa

after we fall (acoustic) at 9 Mile

At the Songwriters' Night last Sept. 30, 08

After We Fall (acoustic)
Lyrics/Music/Arrangement: Francis Funa